There’s a week to go before I have my ovary removed and I am becoming more anxious as the date gets closer.
Today I saw an anesthetist, not my anesthetist unfortunately, but one that will pass on my information. The reason I was referred to him is because during the last operation ( myomectomy that turned into an emergency hysterectomy) I had respiratory failure and needed intensive care for a couple of days.
He listened to my concerns and explained that due to my scoliosis and spinal rods, I have a limited lung capcity. I can’t inhale very well, but I also I don’t exhale enough either. Day to day I am fine, but when I exert myself I do notice my lung deficiency.
He was surprised to hear that I wasn’t given an epidural and a general anesthetic when I had my hysterectomy. He said that it was his hospital’s policy to give an epidural during this kind of operation because then I won’t need morphine; I will be given less general anesthetic and my recovery after surgery will be quicker. I will be given a low dosage during the op and for a couple of days after. It will completely numb the pain. Nice.
I think this is a good idea, especially in my case, the least general anesthetic the better. He said due to the scoliosis it might be a little challenging to perform the epidural, but he will make sure an experienced consultant anesthetist does it and will be with me throughout the surgery. So I’ll be asleep and also numbed from the waist down.
I know it’s all good, and they will take care of me, but I feel more nervous than ever. I read the email he sent to the anesthetist that will be doing the operation. He described me as a very high risk patient and is booking me an intensive care bed just in case something should go wrong. My husband said I should be pleased they have recognised my disabilities, because lets face it, the other surgeon didn’t. I am pleased, but it has also brought it home to me how fragile my body is. I don’t feel weak and I don’t look weak, but the reality is my body is a bit of a wreck. Should any complications arise, I am going to be in trouble.
It also makes me re-think whether I should just have both ovaries removed after all. I don’t want to put myself under more surgery if I’m described as very high risk! It might be too late to change my mind on that one though.
Maybe I’m just panicking because of the last operation. To be honest, now I am more scared of the flipping epidural than anything else. I think that’s probably the least of my worries. The anesthetist said that compared to the other operations I have had in my life, this one is a walk in the park. He’s probably right, I need to chill out and toughen up. Get a grip woman!
On top of this I have a tooth ache, but can’t get an appoinment so I’m doomed. It’s not bad enough yet for an emergency appoinment, but it might be after my op when I can’t drive or move very well. At least I’ll have some pain killers in my system, that’s some comfort.